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		<title>A celebration of Return</title>
		<link>http://wickedpxy.com/archives/327</link>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 17 Jul 2010 19:37:09 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Dear Sensualists,
It has been 7 years since I lived in the San Francisco Bay Area. My path has taken me to the depths of Self exploration and back. In these depths I redefined and confirmed my Service to humanity. Thus the Professional Sensualist was born.
Now, 7 years later I find myself called back to the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Dear Sensualists,</p>
<p>It has been 7 years since I lived in the San Francisco Bay Area. My path has taken me to the depths of Self exploration and back. In these depths I redefined and confirmed my Service to humanity. Thus the Professional Sensualist was born.</p>
<p>Now, 7 years later I find myself called back to the Bay Area. The level of consciousness and community sing to my heart. The next few months I will be expanding my offerings and sharing these delightful Sensualist sessions with sincere seekers.</p>
<p>In CELEBRATION of this return, I am offering a special offering of support to reconnect with my Bay Area roots. For the next phases of my journey, I am offering these Arts at an amazing value. Yes, I understand these are challenging times financially. I honor your hard work for your chi, and when you choose to share this abundance here for your own growth and pleasure you make a choice. How do you choose to spend your money?</p>
<p>In September I will be moving to San Francisco for a couple of weeks. I have a delightful Temple space available and will be creating delightful sessions for sincere seekers.</p>
<p>I have some Cuddle Parties planned for this fall in the East Bay. These events are a great non-sexual way to learn communication, and relationship boundary skills you can use everyday. Check out cuddleparty.com for more information about these wonderful events.</p>
<p>If you are a practitioner of the Sensual Arts, I will be coordinating with Dr. Betty Martin for her Like a Pro course in the end of August.</p>
<p>More events will be added soon. Keep your eyes out, and I look forward to hearing from you soon to schedule your delightful Sensualist session.</p>
<p>Blessings,</p>
<p>Kris Ellen</p>
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		<title>The Art of language</title>
		<link>http://wickedpxy.com/archives/295</link>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 16 Jun 2010 17:41:23 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[One of the challenging aspects of practicing a Art which in this day and age is not openly embraced is how to communicate effectively, with respect for our common social system and still honoring the Integrity of Spirit.
In the Tantra world we speak about Sacred spot (for both men and women), and Amrita.  We talk [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>One of the challenging aspects of practicing a Art which in this day and age is not openly embraced is how to communicate effectively, with respect for our common social system and still honoring the Integrity of Spirit.</p>
<p>In the Tantra world we speak about Sacred spot (for both men and women), and Amrita.  We talk about life force activation, and Kundalini movement. All beautiful and amazing pieces of the Sacred whole.</p>
<p>In the same vein I could talk the Prostate and G Spot, female ejaculation. Bio-electric energy, and subtle energetic body currents. These feel slightly more academic and scientific however I am speaking about similar physical, and energetic structures.</p>
<p>Why is it that we choose one set of words over another? Why does society have less charge around some words and more charge around the direct &#8220;slag&#8221; terminology of our sexual bodies?</p>
<p>For the last 6 years I have been dancing in this question, it is one that fascinates and frustrates me.  If I could only say what people understand. Our common language does not necessarily include Hindu language references, or New Age energetic understanding. There is a reason why people who study ancient languages spend  years mastering the words of the ancients. There are subtle nuisances which defy casual understanding. Sanskrit is a ancient and beautiful language.</p>
<p>In some ways the landscape of Sacred Sexuality is defined learning the vocabulary. How and in what context we are using the words to describe our physical connection.</p>
<p>A few days ago I was introduced to the word: Auparishtaka: from the Kama Sutra: the Art of Oral sexual dancing.</p>
<p>I continue to be amazed at the many different ways we can say something.</p>
<p>Sharing my wonder here with you.</p>
<p>Blessings,</p>
<p>Kris Ellen</p>
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		<title>The Muses call</title>
		<link>http://wickedpxy.com/archives/286</link>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 16 Jun 2010 02:23:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Dear beLoveds,
As a being dedicated the the Service of that which is bigger than myself, I rejoice to share with you a new chapter in my life. For a long time, I have stumbled on expressing the words which would best serve others. My internal critic is a very alive and present voice in my [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Dear beLoveds,</p>
<p>As a being dedicated the the Service of that which is bigger than myself, I rejoice to share with you a new chapter in my life. For a long time, I have stumbled on expressing the words which would best serve others. My internal critic is a very alive and present voice in my internal world. I am human, and part of the blessings I have found on this journey is the Service to share knowledge gained from experience.</p>
<p>I am filled with Joy to be able to share this is a deep aspect of Service. To embody the wisdom and knowledge gained from this life. I am honored to share here. This is truly my Spiritual bliss.</p>
<p>On my journey, I have noticed  internal voices blocking the Goddesses message. My human ego, trying very hard to tell me what is and is not the word of God. Ack! <em>Resistance is futile</em>. I find fear in my mind. Fear of not putting the words in the &#8220;right&#8221; order (of being judged for poor grammar and poor spelling). I notice the fear of being &#8220;unworthy&#8221; of these Divine gifts. I notice the different voices inside of myself and honor them for the many facets of this unique, and beautiful being. As I continue to evolve and move through these fears, I embrace the message of the Divine. We are all beautiful as we are.</p>
<p><strong>I declare this a safe space to fully embody the Divine</strong>. All that which I bring to session, I bring here to myself. I am called to step deeper into my fears, to explore the depths of Self Realization and continue to bring these gifts to you, for your path, so that you may see yourself in the mirror of the Divine. As I shine ever brighter in my own Divinity,  I may indeed be of great Service. You are here. Something has brought us both to this moment in beautiful, perfect timing. What is alive for you in your life?</p>
<p>What internal voices keep you from shining as brightly as you may? What facets of yourself are calling for love and compassion?  What parts of you desire to be seen, witnessed and consciously integrated?</p>
<p>I look forward to diving ever deeper here with you. To share with you my journey as an authentic Sexual being, and to provide the insight of my life to be of Service in yours.</p>
<p>Blessings,</p>
<p>Kris Ellen</p>
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		<title>Please take a moment of your time for this survey&#8230;</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 03 Mar 2010 16:40:07 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Dear Sensualists,
I am honored to share that Spirit is calling me to expansion and growth. 
Please help me by sharing your experience, so that I may honor what is working, and address what is not working within my marketing plan.
I look forward to sharing wonderful Sensualist Experiences with as many beautiful beings as I may.
I [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Dear Sensualists,</p>
<p>I am honored to share that Spirit is calling me to expansion and growth. </p>
<p>Please help me by sharing your experience, so that I may honor what is working, and address what is not working within my marketing plan.</p>
<p>I look forward to sharing wonderful Sensualist Experiences with as many beautiful beings as I may.</p>
<p>I am grateful for your impute.</p>
<p>Blessings,<br />
Kris Ellen</p>
<p><a href="http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/QKWVQSP" onclick="pageTracker._trackPageview('/outgoing/www.surveymonkey.com/s/QKWVQSP?referer=');">Click here to take survey</a></p>
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		<title>Breathing deep after a long trip to the Northwest.</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 17 Feb 2010 01:57:32 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Greetings Sensualists,
I have returned home safe from my recent tour of the magical Northwest. In my travels I had the pleasure of making new friends, sharing delightful Sensualist sessions, driving through the biggest rainbow I have ever seen and soaking in the hot waters of Breitenbush Hot Springs.  
I look forward to returning to [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Greetings Sensualists,</p>
<p>I have returned home safe from my recent tour of the magical Northwest. In my travels I had the pleasure of making new friends, sharing delightful Sensualist sessions, driving through the biggest rainbow I have ever seen and soaking in the hot waters of Breitenbush Hot Springs.  </p>
<p>I look forward to returning to the beautiful, green Northwest. I loved Portland. For now, my traveling feet are content. I am going to take some time to feel rooted here in my home, Central California. </p>
<p>As I expand to reach more people in my Sensualist journeys, recently, I have become increasingly aware of insincere seekers. People who are not really interested in their own self exploration, and enjoy spending time creating stories.  Stories which serve to titillate their personal enjoyment of &#8220;pulling something on someone&#8221;. If this is a kink you enjoy, please do not spend time weaving this insincere story with me. It is my mission to hold space for those who have a sincere interest in their own evolution. If you spend my time with deceit I have less time to honor those who truly have something to share.</p>
<p>Thank you for hearing me. I look forward to a shift in consciousness, so that people no longer have to hide parts of themselves. A place where we are all empowered to speak freely of our natural, and honored parts of Self. Where shame and fear do not hold our hearts, minds, and Spirits captive.</p>
<p>So may it be. Each choice we make leads us toward or away from this place. Let&#8217;s bring it into being soon.</p>
<p>In love.<br />
Kris Ellen</p>
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		<title>Newsletter birth!</title>
		<link>http://wickedpxy.com/archives/162</link>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 12 Jan 2010 02:32:47 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Dear Friends,
I am excited to share that I am looking at creating a  newsletter!
This form of contact will help communicate the wonderful passion I have for Sensuality and  Human connection. In this quarterly publication, I look forward to sharing: Articles, Polls, Toy and Product reviews (A view from the Toy Chest), a very edgy space [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Dear Friends,</p>
<p>I am excited to share that I am looking at creating a  newsletter!</p>
<p>This form of contact will help communicate the wonderful passion I have for Sensuality and  Human connection. In this quarterly publication, I look forward to sharing: Articles, Polls, Toy and Product reviews (A view from the Toy Chest), a very edgy space called Pandora&#8217;s Box (which will ask difficult questions  and hopefully shine a beautiful, caring light on many forms of Sexuality), as well as tips and treats.</p>
<p>I hope to have click through box here on the site soon, but until I do please email me if you are interested in joining my mailing list!</p>
<p>My email is:  sensualnymph@gmail.com</p>
<p>I look forward to hearing from YOU!</p>
<p>Blessings, Kris Ellen</p>
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		<title>Wonderful Humboldt visit.</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 15 Dec 2009 22:37:56 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[When we follow our Bliss, life puts us on a path to our Soul. I am so very grateful for this opportunity to be of Service and create the life of my Dreams.
You all make this possible. With your sincere interest in personal expansion, and pleasure. I am honored to touch the lives of such [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>When we follow our Bliss, life puts us on a path to our Soul. I am so very grateful for this opportunity to be of Service and create the life of my Dreams.</p>
<p>You all make this possible. With your sincere interest in personal expansion, and pleasure. I am honored to touch the lives of such a wonderful group of beings.</p>
<p>In front of a roaring fire we shared beautiful times. Thank you for participating in the Dream we created together.</p>
<p>Tomorrow I am offering a Free discussion night. Come explore the topics of Tantra, Polyamoury, Sacred Sex and many others&#8230;we will be at Old Town Coffee and Chocolates in Eureka CA. Starting at 6pm.</p>
<p>I look forward to seeing you there, and sharing my last night in Humboldt County for awhile.</p>
<p>Wishing you a VERY Joyous Holiday Season.</p>
<p>Love On dearHearts.</p>
<p>Blessings,<br />
Kris Ellen</p>
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		<title>Please check out the new offerings in the side bar.</title>
		<link>http://wickedpxy.com/archives/74</link>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 11 Aug 2009 19:14:30 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>KrisEllen</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[On some pages you will see &#8220;Other rooms in the Temple&#8221; on the right hand side bar. Please take time to check out these great additions to the site. I am honored to offer these pages for you.  I hope you enjoy your visit.
Blessings.
Kris Ellen.
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>On some pages you will see &#8220;Other rooms in the Temple&#8221; on the right hand side bar. Please take time to check out these great additions to the site. I am honored to offer these pages for you.  I hope you enjoy your visit.</p>
<p>Blessings.</p>
<p>Kris Ellen.</p>
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		<title>Forward: &#8220;This is what a sexless marriage feels like&#8221; (a woman&#8217;s perspective)</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 24 May 2009 20:44:30 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[From : Salon.com
This is What a Sexless Marriage Feels Like (http://open.salon.com//blog/and_yet/2009/05/11/this_is_what_a_sexless_marriage_feels_like)
This is What a Sexless Marriage Feels Like:
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<h2>From : Salon.com</h2>
<p>This is What a <span style="border-bottom: 1px dashed #0066cc; background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; cursor: pointer; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial" class="yshortcuts" id="lw_1243197692_2">Sexless Marriage</span> Feels Like (<a href="http://open.salon.com//blog/and_yet/2009/05/11/this_is_what_a_sexless_marriage_feels_like" target="_blank" onclick="pageTracker._trackPageview('/outgoing/open.salon.com//blog/and_yet/2009/05/11/this_is_what_a_sexless_marriage_feels_like?referer=');"><span class="yshortcuts" id="lw_1243197692_3">http://open.salon.com//blog/and_yet/2009/05/11/this_is_what_a_sexless_marriage_feels_like</span></a>)</p>
<p>This is What a Sexless Marriage Feels Like:</p>
<p><!-- <a class="myyahoo" href="http://add.my.yahoo.com/rss?url=" onclick="pageTracker._trackPageview('/outgoing/add.my.yahoo.com/rss?url=&amp;referer=');">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</a> &#8211;> <!-- <a class="buzzit" href="#">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;</a> &#8211;></p>
<p><span style="float: left; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; text-align: right"><span style="font-family: verdana,sans-serif; font-size: 11px; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: bold; line-height: 18px; text-transform: uppercase"></span><span></span> </span><span class="share" style="text-align: right"></span>This post is not about virtue. It is not an ask for sympathy. It attempts to explore what I&#8217;ve learned about sex and sexuality since sex ended within my long-term relationship. I won&#8217;t say much about why, because half of it is not my story to tell and I have no right. Just know that because of illness and after sharing a normal, monogamous, sexually active relationship for nearly a decade, my spouse suddenly lost the need, desire, and passion for sex.</p>
<p>When sex disappears like that, you don&#8217;t necessarily know it at the time. There&#8217;s no announcement. No resetting of hormones for each of you. No discussion that starts with, &#8220;I&#8217;m thinking I&#8217;ll never want to have sex again. Are you ok with this?&#8221;  It&#8217;s just gone. One day, perhaps months or years later, you realize that the last time you had sex together was the last time you’d <em>ever</em> have sex together.</p>
<p>As I’ve gone through these years without a sexual connection to my spouse, sexual desire did not fade within me. I still think about sex and long for it, I still dream about it, and fantasize. I do try to minimize overt exposure to what can make it harder. I don’t read the OS dirty haikus on Thursday and I never read sensual erotica. I look away during sex scenes in films. I no longer engage in “how’s your sex life” conversations with friends. And yet, even with these rules and a relationship devoid of sex, sex remains a part of my life, in my mind, in my dreams, and in my writing.</p>
<p>As I’ve gotten through these last eight years, I’ve thought a lot about sex, sexuality, and relationships. Here is some of what I’ve discovered:</p>
<p><strong>Sex is vital to a good life.</strong> What? You thought you knew that? So did I. I knew sex reduced my stress level, added to my joie de vivre, helped me sleep more soundly, and that it made the mornings after sweeter. I knew that dependable, good sex was very important, even imperative to a good life and relationship. Going without sex led me to understand its meaning even more: I understand how it nourishes and comforts, touches the soul, sustains our natural rhythms. All of that was happening before, so I never examined the ‘how or why”. Going without sex now, I can see how the lack of it upsets each of those things.</p>
<p><strong>Sex may not be a need like air, but it is needed.</strong> Yes, I can live without sex, I pretty much do, but I don’t live joyfully. It’s gotten harder, not easier to go without for so long. I need sex to live the life I wanted to live, to feel happiness to the potential I have within me, to carry me through life’s challenges and sorrows. I need sex like I need friends and conversation, like I need the sun and spring, like I need books and music. I need sex to make all of those things better, too. Some nights, sex is all I can think about. I ache to be desired and wanted, to give way to joy and abandon. There is no substitute for the moment when your lover reaches out for you with passion, or with love. Trust me on this, there is no substitute.</p>
<p><strong>Sex holds you together when everything else is pulling you apart. </strong>Another given, but think about it for a gentle moment. How many times has that tender caress, that kiss that lingers just a bit longer, that flirtatious glance made you feel closer, safer, connected, a couple, united? How often has it been the bridge from anger to forgiveness, from stressed to relaxed, from lonely to loved? It works. Sex does the job it is supposed to do, fusing you as a couple. Sharing sex means exposing vulnerability, intimacies of the heart and body. You know secrets about each other that are beyond naked and truer than fact, learned during uncensored moments of bliss. Honoring and protecting those secrets is a gift to each other.</p>
<p><strong>Sex makes me feel like a woman and nothing else really does. </strong>My career doesn&#8217;t do that for me. Spending time with friends doesn&#8217;t. Volunteering doesn’t. Wearing skirts and lingerie helps, but still&#8230;.  sex? Oh yes. That&#8217;s when I feel womanly and confident, aching to express my desire and eroticism, and ready to reveal the mysteries of my gender. Nothing else asks me to reach in and grasp the inner femaleness that flows so deep, that yearns to surface. Going without sex now, I sometimes feels less of who I am, less connected to my friends and other women, a little less relevant in the world. I feel distant from myself.</p>
<p><strong>Our sexuality continues to evolve over time, even after many years.</strong>  About five years into this, I realized something very new about my sexual desire, something I had not considered before. How could this be? I wasn’t in an active sexual relationship, I was making every attempt to de-sexualize myself, and suddenly a new sexual idea came to me begging to be explored and experienced. How unfair and cruel! This revelation thrilled, stunned and scared me. How and why this came to me during the sex-free years of my existence remain obscure to me, and yet there it is. Just another reminder that sexuality, that basic human drive, has a life of its own.</p>
<p><strong>Sex allows you to communicate in ways that you cannot replicate in any other way.</strong>   What you can do with your fingers, your mouth, your hips&#8230;. all those luscious areas of the body that allow for expression that can&#8217;t be articulated any other way. During sex you can whisper and tease and demand and beg with intonation and nuances that are not appropriate in any other setting. I miss this language so dearly and with such a vengeance that I have to continually monitor myself to be sure I don&#8217;t do it in the wrong setting.<span>  </span>I have to say, honestly, this is probably what I miss the most – the language of sex.</p>
<p><strong>Masturbation is nice.</strong> And I am a pro. I swear to all of you, none of you are better at this than I am. I always knew masturbation was nice, but before it was just a warm-up or a way to tide myself over between couple-sex events. Now it<span><span style="font-family: Georgia; color: black"> </span></span><em>is</em><span><span style="font-family: Georgia; color: black"> </span></span>sex.</p>
<p><strong>Masturbation gets to be very, very lonely. </strong>Not lonely enough to totally stop, but lonely enough that sometimes an orgasm from solo masturbation ends in tears and a feeling of profound solitude.</p>
<p><strong>Sex gives us some hope. </strong>Sex makes us hope, for more, for better, for different, for the same. During the good years, we had sex pretty regularly, as couples do. Thursday night? Always. Again on a weekend night and a weekend morning, even both weekend mornings. And then there was Tuesday, the bonus day. Tuesdays felt a little hopeful, a little romantic, a little sexy. I miss that feeling, wondering if it will be a ‘sex Tuesday’. I miss counting on sex on Thursday, and looking forward to weekend sex. Going without sex all the time adds a layer of drudgery to the week. Now it&#8217;s just work, time after work, and then sleep. Same thing tomorrow. Same thing next week, next month, and next year. Sex adds that soft glitter to the winter’s gray, a soothing balm to the end of a long work day, a benevolent barrier to the world outside.</p>
<p><strong>The less I had sex, the more I thought about it.</strong><span><strong><span style="font-family: Georgia; color: black"> </span></strong></span>During the first few years of this, I thought about sex all the time. There wasn&#8217;t a conference room table on which I didn&#8217;t imagine a lewd image during a business meeting. I couldn&#8217;t enter an elevator without seeing myself pressed against the wall by a lover and kissed passionately. When I traveled, hotel rooms kept me awake at night as I thought about all the options therein. I have consciously worked to mitigate those thoughts and that’s helped, but even that ‘success’ feels like a loss.</p>
<p><strong>Sex makes me love my body.</strong><span><strong><span style="font-family: Georgia; color: black"> </span></strong></span>Watching, feeling, hearing a lover take pleasure in my body and receive it from my touch, these feelings are inimitable. A lover’s certain touch affirms me emotionally and physically. Knowing that my body and my own touch produce exquisite gratification and joy tell me I am a sexy, sensual woman. I appreciate my body and am glad for it, but I ache to express and enjoy its sexual potential.</p>
<p><span style="font-weight: bold">Our sexuality is a gift of comfort and passion that we offer the world, an offer to sustain a love, to convey our essence from our soul</span>.</p>
<p>There is more to say, but even a non-sexual relationship deserves some privacy. Thank you for respecting that. Please remember these are just<span><span style="font-family: Georgia; color: black"> </span></span><em>my</em><span><span style="font-family: Georgia; color: black"> </span></span>lessons. They may be meaningless to others who face this, and to those of you who are sexually active. I honestly can&#8217;t predict what will resonate for anyone. I beg you not to tell me I am wrong, but to trust that this is what I think and feel.</p>
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Joint Statement with Attorneys General, NCMEC
Joint Statement with NCMEC and over 40 Attorneys General Detailing Measures to Prevent Illegal Activity and Improve Safety
craigslist Files 14 Lawsuits Against Software and Service Providers who Facilitate Misuse of Site
November 06, San Francisco, CA &#8211; craigslist announced today it is implementing sweeping new measures, in [...]]]></description>
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<h2>Joint Statement with Attorneys General, NCMEC</h2>
<p id="{F19BC972-BB31-4753-86EA-02D13F1F879B}" class="entry"><strong>Joint Statement with NCMEC and over 40 Attorneys General Detailing Measures to Prevent Illegal Activity and Improve Safety</strong></p>
<p><strong>craigslist Files 14 Lawsuits Against Software and Service Providers who Facilitate Misuse of Site</strong></p>
<p>November 06, San Francisco, CA &#8211; craigslist announced today it is implementing sweeping new measures, in close partnership with state law enforcement and the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children (NCMEC), to prevent its online communities and classified ads from being misused for the facilitation of human trafficking, child exploitation, and other illegal activities.</p>
<p>The measures were outlined in a joint statement signed by craigslist, NCMEC, and the attorneys general of more than 40 U.S. states and territories, representing a broad collaborative effort spearheaded by Connecticut Attorney General Richard Blumenthal. The specific measures outlined in today’s joint statement were shaped during face-to-face meetings between Jim Buckmaster, CEO of craigslist, Attorney General Blumenthal, and representatives of NCMEC.</p>
<p>“Preventing site misuse and improving public safety are our highest priorities,” said Jim Buckmaster, CEO of craigslist, “and we are extremely appreciative of the encouragement we’ve received from the attorneys general and NCMEC.” He added, “The incidence of crime on craigslist is actually exceedingly low, considering the tens of millions of legitimate ads posted each month by well-intentioned users.” “But no amount of criminal activity is acceptable, and as craigslist has grown, we have become aware of instances where our free services were being misused to facilitate illegal activities.” Buckmaster continued, “We are unequivocally committed to stamping out misuse of the site and to improving safety for craigslist users, through preventative measures such as the ones we are announcing as part of the Joint Statement.”</p>
<p>Due in part to the growth of craigslist, businesses have sprung up selling software and other services designed to evade craigslist’s terms of use, and to circumvent its technical defenses against misuse, including phone verification. By offering services designed to undermine craigslist’s ability to enforce its terms of use, these businesses facilitate the placement of ads for illegal services that would otherwise be blocked by craigslist’s protective measures. craigslist has no tolerance for these activities and has filed 14 lawsuits and is sending “cease and desist” demands to numerous other companies and individuals offering such services. In addition, craigslist will investigate and provide information to state attorneys general for the prosecution of those engaging in and facilitating criminal activity.</p>
<p>craigslist is constantly working to improve its existing tools for enforcing its terms of use. In this regard, the company has continued to refine its protocols for blocking inappropriate postings and advertisements for illegal services. In addition, a flagging system accompanies each ad, so that inappropriate content can be identified by users for quick removal. craigslist has also implemented the industry standard PICS rating system for tagging adult content, to facilitate parental screening software on home computers.</p>
<p>craigslist recently implemented a telephone verification system for the “erotic services” section of the site, requiring a working phone number for advertisers, and enabling blacklisting of phone numbers for those who post inappropriate ads. Phone verification resulted in an 80% reduction in ad volume, and significantly increased compliance with site guidelines.</p>
<p>In addition to phone verification and other existing protective measures, craigslist will soon require credit card verification and a small fee per ad for posting in “erotic services”, to further encourage compliance with<br />
site guidelines. Paid ads that violate site guidelines will be removed without refund. The company intends to donate 100% of net revenue generated from these ads to charity, with net revenue to be verified by an external auditor.</p>
<p>“Requiring credit card verification, and charging a fee to post in this category raises accountability to a point where we expect few illicit ads will remain,” says Buckmaster. “For those that do persist, telephone and credit card information will be available to law enforcement via subpoena. More than ever, those who would misuse craigslist to violate the law will find that craigslist is a very inhospitable place.”</p>
<p>The craigslist site is used by 40 million Americans each month, who represent a potent force for identifying and reporting illicit activity. In addition to participating in NCMEC’s Cybertipline program, and urging craigslist users to flag suspect postings and file a report anytime they suspect the exploitation of a minor or human trafficking, craigslist will work with NCMEC and the state attorneys general to further improve site messaging to build awareness of these important issues. Buckmaster added, “Human trafficking and child exploitation are despicable crimes, and in addition to working diligently to prevent such abuse, we want to do everything we can to raise awareness among craigslist users so that they will be even more vigilant.”</p>
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<p>It is a sad day for personal choice and responcibility when we stop standing up for our RIGHTS and allow another to dictate to us what our choices are.</p>
<p>My reply to their blog:</p>
<p><em>As with all shining beacons of hope and empowerment things change. It is a sad fact that fear based choices have ruled in our society for a long time. CL was a place to offer Freedom of Speech and Responsible Adult choice.<br />
I am very sad to learn that you have chosen to cave into the fear based choices of society and not continue to fight for every persons right to choose. I understand that with the law enforcement crack down and your growth your service was on the front lines. </em></p>
<p id="{F19BC972-BB31-4753-86EA-02D13F1F879B}" class="entry"> <em>I am a educated, empowered woman who chooses the profession of healer and sensual artist. There are some cases of human trafficking but it is a excuse. An excuse to limit our freedom of expression and choice. Please reconsider your position. You have been such a light for so long. As Gaundi says it is only with compliance that we can allow our freedoms to be taken away.</em></p>
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<p id="{F19BC972-BB31-4753-86EA-02D13F1F879B}" class="entry">I call out to all friends and supporters of personal empowerment and freedom. Please do not give in to the pressure! Hold fast. Hold firm. And keep sharing the loving, healing energy that our world so needs.</p>
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<p id="{F19BC972-BB31-4753-86EA-02D13F1F879B}" class="entry">Blessings to All.</p>
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